Like most, the past year has been a wild wakeup call. I left my restaurant job of 10+ years in pursuit of something more. Since then I've bounced around from 3 different jobs, to the one I'm at now. And I just...can't... get ahead. I have done everything I was supposed to do in life-- I went to school, I received the college degree, I held a consistent job and it's still left me feeling empty. In the last year I've applied to easily over 500-600+ jobs and now something even more uglier is rearing its head...
I simply can not get ahead. Every single job that indeed shows me is more or less the same exact salary range. 30-40k/year. And is either customer service or sales jobs. Marketing jobs(which my degree is specialized in) tell me I don't have the experience, even though I spent 10+ years at the restaurant I worked for help market their social media presence and community events(which I include in my resume and cover letters). And it's just starting to feel like there is absolutely no hope for me. That decisions I made when I was 18 are now the coffin in which I lay. The job I have now is what I thought I wanted-- the office setting, administrative work, 9-5, weekends off but no growth(there is ALWAYS a catch) as I'm in the highest position possible. I thought this is what society expected of me. I like my coworkers, the work is beyond boring, I'm not growing from this position and all I have to look forward to is raises. On the paper the pay seemed great at $24/hr but after the limited 35 hours and taxes, it is absolutely no different than anyy other option I have. Except I'm off weekends now.
I honestly can't be alone because this whole contrived situation feels "by design". No matter which way I turn its always a dead end with no growth or a step forward. Just trapped revolving between one 40k/year job or title for the next. I'm fearing I will never own a home, that my life is just going to blip right on by and I'm going to stay at this office job until I retire, making nothing, while the doctors around me make millions, all the while my own ambitions wither away.
I feel forced to decide between having all the time to spend with no money or have no time to spend with some money. How am I supposed to pursue my goals and dreams or hell even just focus on myself when 90% of my day is given to someone else living their dream? I get home at 7, I cook dinner by 8, I eat, take 30min to get caught up on the world and then in bed to do it all over again tomorrow. I can not even begin to describe the emotion maelstrom raging inside of me. From feelings of doubt, fear, worthlessness, anger, the whole spectrum of human emotion. And there isn't a damn thing I can do about it, unless I want to throw it all to the wind- walk from my job and pray I don't watch my savings that took me my entire life to save up drain to zero in less than a year. FUCK. What do I do?
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