I don't really know where to go to anymore. I talk to my friends but nothing feels better.
I recently graduated from college and I work at a corporate job as an IT analyst. Waking up every day 9-5 is very mentally and emotionally draining. (Call me a bitch whatever).
We recently hired a girl with no tech background or degree to our team just because my managers wanted less of an "alpha - male" vibe.
So for our company if you work a certain amount of time you will get a promotion, and I became the lead for my team, which doesn't count as a promotion still. I've been here for about a year, working my ass off.
Today I found out that the girl got a promotion, and not to sound like a salty cunt but.. she literally has no tech experience and really doesn't even know what she's doing. She's been here for a month. I find out from HR (secret) that they only promoted her because they wanted a girl to be a lead. It really fucking sucks to find that all of my hard work and everything was for nothing. I am planning to quit this company.
It made me feel a sense of worthlessness. Am I even good enough? Why do these things constantly happen to me? My life has always been a shit show and I never really made any accomplishments. When I finally became a team lead I thought it would finally brighten up. No, I got it taken away. I really don't want to sound like a whiny little cunt because I would've have minded if someone in a much worthy position took the promotion. However, the fact that she GOT it because she was a GIRL made me infuriated.
I've been applying knowing I won't get in. It's depressing knowing that without this job I'd be on the streets, yet it hurts me so much to be here. Is it okay to be feeling angry? I'm so angry that I don't want to show up anymore. They took advantage of me and promoted someone else.
It really makes me question my self worth , my life is always, always in shambles. When I try to accomplish anything, it all goes to shits. I have never won anything, gained any glorifying satisfaction, and now work even sucks. I am currently trying to find a new job. I'm just trying to rant, it's okay if nobody reads it.
I called my manager and he tried to give me some sorry excuse to why they chose her. My managers are all in Florida, we work in California. The only time that they had met her was when she first started. They never looked at her reviews, or gotten approval from the team. They just made the decision in one day. It just feels so fucking shitty that I'm working somewhere I know I'll never move up. The promotion position never opens up, the last time it was open was 2 years ago. I was working and trying my best to get there. What do you guys think I should do? To be completely honest and unbiased, she is definitely not ready for the job as a whole. She doesn't understand computers yet she's in the IT field and I do all the work for her.
Should I waste my time here or stay?
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