I'm not entirely sure if I want the job anymore and I don't know what to do about it and why I feel this way.

I recently applied for a position at a local non-profit. I was excited about the job until I attended the job interview and learned a little bit more about the position/hours and suddenly I wasn't so sure anymore. I'm worried that I may have rushed myself to apply for any full-time job that sounded remotely interesting. I went for the interview on Monday, and as soon as I got home afterward I started panicking about all of the stuff I will be listing below, (essentially, I felt like I didn't want the job anymore). I kinda forgot about it until a little while ago (today, Wednesday), when one of my references messaged me to let me know that they called her, and now I am freaking out again.

I am graduating from university at the end of the month, and with this I have experienced a significant portion of my family asking me what I'm planning on doing with my life blah blah blah. While this is occurring, my current part-time job (which I admittedly really enjoy) has been scheduling me once a week, four hours a shift. With this, I have felt quite pressured into finding something in my field, with more hours, or even potentially full-time. So, when I came across the job ad for this non-profit online, I jumped on it. My trouble is that I misinterpreted the ad a little bit, and now I am concerned that I maybe don't actually want this job anymore just on principle.

But if I'm going to be honest, I can't even explain why I feel like I don't want the job anymore. It's just a yucky feeling. I guess one thing is that it was advertised like it was a seasonal position, but in fact it is just year-round with drastically reduced hours in the winter, at which point I would probably begin to seek a different job again. As well, during the interview they mentioned that they have special permission to not give employees a break during really busy event days, so I would be eating when I can without dedicated time to do so. In addition, there is no vacation time, though I have mentioned days to them that I would simply be unavailable (wedding, grad, etc). It was also advertised in such a way that made it seem like it was a 9-5 kind of position, which I was excited to be able to keep my part time job in the evenings. However, that was a misconception, and it turns out that evenings and weekends are required, etc etc etc.

I know that none of these things are inherently a problem, and are quite common in most cases. I think I am more annoyed that I was mislead by the job ad which lead me to apply for a job I might not have otherwise applied for. At this point in my life where I have minimal financial responsibility and hardly a whisper of a career, I don't have anything to lose, which is why I kinda feel like a bit of a pissbaby for being so emotionally distressed about whether or not I want this job when in reality I should just take it and work there for the summer for the experience and cash, and then find something with more hours again come fall-time (which was when I was expecting to have to job search again anyways).

What I am struggling most with is clarity of the situation. Are these feelings normal? Am I upset over nothing? Should I take the job for the sake of working even if I have bad feelings about it? Would it be unprofessional to accept a job that's technically year-round with my own preface of planning to leave when the hours cut off? Am I dumb for wanting to keep my four hours-per-week job just because I like it? I just have so many questions because I have zero understanding of my own feelings in this situation and I'm feeling especially lost knowing that they've called my references and I am one of the top contenders for the position.

I'm sorry this was one giant word vomit, it's quite representative of my mental state about this whole situation.

Edit: Flaired as Job Searching because it felt the most appropriate.

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