TL;DR: I'm an overthinker who can't seem to get/keep a traditional job, looking for advice/ideas/a magical profitable unicorn.
Hello,
I'm a 28/m fgk (formerly gifted kid) with hardly any work history (I've had about 5 jobs, never for more than about 3 months at a time) and somehow I've lived a fairly comfortable life up to now (nothing illegal, mind. But please don't ask.).That is about to change; I am in dire need of income, and I've just run headfirst into the realization that I don't have the work/social skills to be able to keep a typical job... Though I am still stuck trying anyway, for now.
I'm considering going onto disability (just got a diagnosis that would allow this), however it wouldn't pay enough for me to live where I want, nor to have any money left over to pursue anything that would make me happy, like higher education... nor a hobby like gardening, woodworking, art, etc. AND if I were to work on the side and get caught, I could lose those benefits permanently. (not a perfect system... But c'est la vie?)
I have many, MANY interests, and I'm rather intelligent... But I'm terribly unreliable due to unpredictable bouts of anxiety that cause me to isolate, become irritable, and/or sleep for days on end, and that just doesn't work when people need you to be at a place, ready to work, consistently at a certain time each day.
I'm passionate about sustainability/environmentalism (plants and fungi, especially), helping people (life coaching comes to mind), fitness (yoga, calisthenics), travel, food (diet/nutrition, and culinary arts), and... video games (I have dreams of developing functional/educational virtual environments based on gaming principals, but absolutely no coding/design experience to speak of -_- ), writing, music, and ART in many, many forms (but lack the capital and confidence to attempt this as a business venture).
I'm ashamed to be in this position, feeling like I need to be provided for in order to be functional, and I don't know how to "catch up" with this perpetually feeling behind, and too depressed to try... And yet I also feel that I MUST find some way to make something of myself, because I truly believe that I have a lot to offer if I can just get to the other side of this mountainous slump.
Basically, I'm asking for advice/resources in the realm of rehabilitation and learning functional self-regulation... In no time... Because therapy has so far been fruitless, and I don't have a support network that I trust to help me out without some kind of serious catch... And the kawaii fantasy of being adopted by a mysterious benefactor has all but completely faded... (pls notice me?... heh... )
Or, perhaps just a healthy dose of reassurance. I'm trying very hard to accept that things are going to work out :)
thank you for your time,thoughts always welcome,
best,--MC
P.S. And if I can and do find a way to make everything work out, it is my goal to help as many others as I can to do the same, or similar, for themselves... Otherwise, what's the point?
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