My country has 2 months notice. I resigned last week. I was way too personal with my boss... now he's expressing constant disappointment in me and I feel intense guilt. Please help me.

Hi everyone,

I'm 28 and not a native speaker, sorry. Well... I landed this job 2 years ago in an industry I highly value, with awesome colleagues, but it's a super boring position (4 days/week). My role needs me to work with my boss (the CEO) as his closest employee. We got together extremely well since day 1 and he started relying on me for work, and then for a lot of personal topics, things that I handled since I felt close to him and since he visibly had some struggles with emotions (he's on the spectrum) and organisation. Not my things to care about, I know, but I genuinely liked the person, wanted to help him be well and felt invested personally in it. We bonded like real friends with strong and deep trust in each other.

Now I have this side business who has been my passion for a long time, and I'm now financially independent to the point of being able to develop it full time, which is honestly a dream to me. So it was heartbreaking, but I resigned last week, thinking anyone would get it if I chosed my own dream business financially successful instead of an administrative position...

Well, my boss didn't. He was unable to deal with the information, like the sky fell or whatever. My resignation meeting was a huge mess, he didn't really get the "why", it was like I was speaking another language, I cried, we even hugged but he still didn't get it at all, saying that he would never have let go of me. Since then he's not mean or whatever, just actively trying to show that he's hurt, and to have me figure out how much he will struggle without me and how disappointed he is in me, looking sad and defeated all around the office and telling people that I indeed was a disappointment. He's constantly making it personal, like he was invested in me as a person while I'm the mean one who just saw it as a cold contract, repeating how many dreams he also had, yet chosed to stay faithful to his job instead. He's very dramatic about it, and I feel like he's wanting me to feel bad / guilty / egoistical / like a culprit for leaving, like if I had to pay for the emotional trauma I caused him. I don't know. I don't get why. I guess it's because he cannot make the difference between leaving a position and leaving a friendly relationship with an human being.

I feel IMMENSE guilt over that. Even if I know he shouldn't have such an emotional response, I still value him a whole lot and I don't want him to feel like that. It's not his fault he doesn't fully get it. He's on the spectrum and changes are hard / people he's comfortable with are rare. I am terrified of being a bad person and I don't know how to repair that. My country has mandatory 2 months notice. I don't want to spend 1 month and 3 weeks in this situation because I'm a low self confidence person and it's like a wound constantly hurting me. I hate making people suffer and I hate to feel like a culprit like that. I never wanted any of that. I just wanted to have him being happy I am following my dream. Help me survive my 2 months or calm things please. Have a nice day.

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