This is for those of you thirty and older, I guess.
I am...not a director. I do not want to be in a leadership position, necessarily, but that's not the point. I'm in lower sales/admin - the least useful roles. I shifted fields, out of working with small children. I am contracting and it's a self-perpetuating, toxic thing; the experience of the recruiter who "loves my experience" and then proceeds to poke and prod a resume they haven't read, insult me and my experience, and never call again is a weekly experience now that I am employed. (It's creepy - I have not updated my linkedin yet but there they are. I wonder what searches I'm coming up in when I've limited my correspondence to inmail/email).
There is nothing like realizing some good-looking person who looks five years older than me is either my age - or younger- and is director of finance, or software ops, etc. Or worse, they're twenty five, and their life path led them to outearn you by easily three or four times. My blood runs cold; suddenly I analyze a million ways I ended up utterly disposable, increasingly run down and wondered what it would have been life to have life work out when learning a skill and acclimating to work - not doing it (and being drained by it) was my only job. I was too stupid to realize college should be treated as a feedmill into a job. My parents didn't know and neither did I; it was't a healthy time either.
I have to constantly fight the feeling it's not a race and all that pure bullshit but I age a year in a day when I see something like that, because I know that's what the people that put them in that role want - "ambition", success, and progress right after college.
One of my bosses in contract jobs became a director of gaming design and is probably pulling in 150k a year at 29, while his classmates from the same program are probably flipping burgers. I don't begrudge people their success (he got into a company that blew up quick) or hard work (and so he did) - but it made me feel horrible. Not just with envy; if ten CEOs of every company hiring in an urban environment is hiring, that's really what he expects. That's how an age where big tech/marketing outfits plays out.
Suffice it to say I'm not much better than his friends who went to the same program for an incredibly difficult field and predictably, sadly crashed and burned.
usa jobs resume
usa hotel jobs
usajobs
usa jobs federal government
usa job in ksa
usa jobs
usa jobs login
usa jobs gov
usajobs.gov
www.usajobs.gov
usajobs.com
usajobs
usajobs.gov official
Aucun commentaire: