I am caught between 2 decisions/jobs. After weighing options, flipping coins, writing several pros and cons lists, I'm still not sure. I have to decide by tomorrow.

I am caught between 2 decisions:

1: Stay in a big city where I don't know anyone and work in a job that I'm passionate about in mental health. However, this job does not involve a ton of creativity/art (which I am also interested in and would like to pursue).

2: Move to a smaller city where I have more social support and take more time to find a job where I can do something I'm passionate about and be creative. This city is also much cheaper. However, the smaller city is not as LGBTQ+ friendly, and I am bisexual.

My friends and family think that working in mental health isn't good for my own mental health (I would say it's a hard field, but I've been prioritizing my own about self-care overall). They also think I am not doing well without a support system. They are urging me to Option 2.

I am swaying towards Option 1 because I appreciate living in a more liberal city. However, it's been hard making friends during COVID, and I don't have a support system here (aside from 2 semi-close friends), which is impacting my mental health. I am romantically interested in 1 friend in Option 1 city, and I have grown close to them, so moving to Option 2 may ruin that, as then I would be living ~6 hours away from them. I believe, unfortunately, my feelings for the romantic interest (who may not even like me) and *idealizing* the city, is swaying me too much.

I have to accept or decline the option 1 job offer by tomorrow.

I feel bad declining, but it will probably be better for my mental health in the long run. So I will most likely choose Option 2.

Yet I still keep flip-flopping. Any third party opinions?

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