Largely life advice related question, but dealing with what job/carrer to get in science. My passions in astrophysics/physics and engineering have changed and I don't know what to do, any advice?

This will all determine what job I get/carrier.

TLDR: I'll try to be brief. Simply put, I started out a year ago with certain passions, they slowly changed as things happened and I researched them more, then I left it all because a lot of bad stuff happened and I was stupid as heck to leave, now I'm back and I'm not sure if my passions are where they were when I FIRST STARTED then, or if they're still left off where they CHANGED a bit at the end.

THE LONG VERSION WITH PROBABLY NEEDED DETAILS BELOW:

They started out more general a mix of astrophysics being my favorite, being followed by physics, then aerospace engineering. Slowly as I looked into them more (researching at least an hour a day into them and what want to do for 3 months), I narrowed down a lot what I want to do. These were by FAR the best times in my entire life, and the most significant things that have ever happened to me happened then. So when I say things happened that changes my passions then...they were huge real changes. Like life changing events can forever leave a mark on your passions.

As I researched more, narrowed down some things, things happened to me, my passions slowly narrowed a bit more to the aerospace engineering/engineering of things INSIDE the solar system. This is different from before where it was more astrophysics, being largely outside the solar system in general, and that was followed by general physics/chemistry.

The huge really life defining/interest defining moments I had then are LARGER in my mind than even after they changed me then. Like I'm focusing on more those things than I did even after they happened. Probably obviously because those were the best times I had.

As well, I narrowed down what I wanted to do by removing options, focusing it smaller and smaller over probably a hundred or a few hours of thought/research. So it's like now, can I just "pick up where I left off?" 8 months ago after I stopped? Or to be sure about anything I did then considering my passions have changed a little and that knowledge is a bit old in my head, do I restart? I've had a go at this...and it's tricky because I FEEL emotionally like I have the answers, like I know them and I've decided. But again I only decided right at the time because my passions and knowledge of them were grounded...now they're not 100%. One of the things that happened to me out of two potentially carrier changing/life changing moments changed my interested a bit in one direction, and I'm sure I would of contoured in that direction for the rest of my life hadn't I stopped. But it changed my interested A BIT in that direction, now coming back my mind is a GOOD DEAL more in that direction. Thing is I don't know if this is genuine passion in that direction, or just remembering how good that event was...almost nostalgia. I can't decide a carrier based off of something that could changed somewhat quickly. I need a plan so I know what to do next, and not something so general that it's not even really an answer. I got the answers/specificity I wanted before, I need to ground myself so I can again.

Like I feel as though I'd be right in saying "lets start off with passions I've had for years and years and know that's right", OR I could say and be right "those life changing events that changed my passions a bit didn't happen that long ago (9/8 months) and they were truly passion defining/changing moments". Like many people have read a book, or done something that's changed their passions TOTALLY. For their entire life. But also I don't want to act on that and it ends up being wrong...an event that happened a bit ago so I don't know if its real passion that will last now. It's hard either way now. The first option doing what I know I loved for years is like "But those amazing events changed my passion there!" and then "But I don't know if I can do that because it's been awhile and I need to separate an event from a passion change (that happened awhile back, another factor), so I should just do what I know I love"

Oh and if literally "give it time and it will sort itself out" is the answer, okay. That might be it.

Sorry for the length of this post, but I feel as though it's sort of needed so you know what's going on and the nuances of the situation. What would you do in my situation? And if you don't feel as though you need an answer if you were in my situation, say so. But also I NEED one, even if you wouldn't. That's me and I know I need to know this and I need that goal and direction, even if you wouldn't. So assume it's right, because for me I do need that answer. Thanks, any help/advice is appreciated.

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