I have been a temp worker at my company for three years working full time, and only now have I fully accepted that they probably will never hire me. How bad is this situation I put myself in, and how should I make an exit without pissing off my supervisors?

Hello all,

So quick background on me. I graduated with a degree in accounting back in December 2016. Unfortunately I was a poor student and made little effort at networking, so I ended up graduating with a bad GPA and no job prospects. I studied for the CPA exams until Fall 2017, and by then I had failed two different exams. I have mostly given up on this, though I have begun studying again because i need it to advance my career, and anything seems better than my current situation. I joined a temp agency and they had me work a couple different temporary assignments until May of 2018, which is when I ended up at my current position. I'm a buyer for a multinational company, and I make $16 dollars an hour, working 40 hours a week which totals up to about $33,000 per year of take home pay. That's peanuts here in Los Angeles, and the only reason why I have been living decently is because I have very few living expenses since my parents let me stay with them in the family home. Since May 2018 I have taken less than 14 days of vacation, and I have shitty health insurance that I buy through the temp agency.

Since the pandemic began last March, I have been working from home four out of the five days a week, but the problem is that the company does not pay overtime. And while my supervisor tells me not to work off hours, realistically I must do so given the amount of work that needs to be done. Realistically I work about 10 hours a day.

I think my biggest mistake is that I have a been a very poor advocate for myself. I have not asked for a raise, I bring up my hiring status with my supervisor only a couple of times a year, and I let my department head (my direct supervisor's supervisor) get away with blaming my status on the red tape of the corporate headquarters in Europe. I know now that I should have never stopped job hunting and that I should have threatened to leave at least a year ago. The other buyers I work with, who I share many responsibilities with, were also hired through the same temp agency, and all were hired into the company within 8-14 months of their start date. After a recent performance review where my supervisor explained she was disappointed with my work performance, I was told that I needed to improve my performance because my performance supposedly indicated that I was "taking advantage of the company" during a time when I should be thankful to even have a job. Then my department head also chimed in to say that he can't "show this to headquarters", seemingly implying that he would stonewall my hiring status. Those comments really cut into me, and furthermore my circumstances have changed. My parents are retiring to a different state and I have been diagnosed with Type 2 diabetes (and my high deductible health insurance plan is barely helping). So within the next year I have to get a better paying job and I have to find a new place to live because I don't intend on moving away from Los Angeles, although I'm open to the idea.

Now I realize that I should stop my self-pitying, I know thousands of Americans have it far worse than me and are completely without income while they have families depending on them. But right now I need some guidance on what to do. The lack of a network is killing me, I have almost no friends and most of my family is overseas (I'm a dual citizen of America and another nation that I can move back to if worse comes to worst).

My hope is to get an entry level job in Accounts Payable/Receivable so I can at least utilize some of my accounting skills while I continue to study for the CPA exams, but I've been applying wherever I could through the job search sites like Indeed and Glassdoor and haven't even managed an interview

Thank you for reading this wall of text, and please let me know if you have any questions.

EDIT: Oh yeah, and one thing that's holding me back is that I'm not sure how my reference will go if I do get a new job. My supervisor has been great up until the last few months, and while I don't think she would say I was a bad employee, I do think she might have some recency bias in the assessment of my performance. There's another employee that I could put down as my reference, he has nearly 30 years experience with the company and he would give me a great reference as we work well together. However he was never a supervisor of mine

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