I started a new job just over 6 months ago. My work/life balance has been terrible - I was told it would be a 9-5 job, but most days I was leaving between 8pm-10pm. To this day I've still never left before 5:30.
Quick backstory - I moved back home when covid hit and destroyed my sleep schedule so that I could study without so much noise. I was regularly sleeping from 6/7am to 2/3pm then studying all day and night. I graduated end of April, but my sleep never really got back on track since it was way more peaceful in my house when everyone was asleep.
I moved out after getting the job but I still didn't fix my sleep schedule - I got 3-4 hours of sleep for 4 months straight. About a month ago I started getting closer to 5 hours. I was always exhausted, but never wanted to go to bed because I was working 11-13 hours a day... staying up late was my way to feel like I had even the slightest bit of control over my life.
About 2 weeks ago I finished a major project at work, and since then I've basically said f*** it, I'm not staying late anymore. I've left before 6:30 every day since, with most days between 5:30 and 6. It's been AMAZING - I'm able to make dinner, shower, clean, etc. and be done with it earlier than I was previously leaving work. I no longer mindlessly scroll through social media for hours before bed. I can literally just put my phone down at midnight and go to sleep, whereas before I'd scroll until 3/4am for no reason.
Now that I have all this time, I constantly feel like I'm wasting it, even though I don't really have anything to do. I'm overwhelmed by how little I have to do, and how there's nothing that I actually want to do. University robbed me of all my hobbies and interest. My ADHD medication makes me feel like I always need to be doing something, so I've kinda forgotten how to relax. I constantly feel guilty for not maximizing my time, but at the same time I don't even know what to do with my time. And when I don't take my meds, like today, I just sit around and wish that I had something interesting to do or that I was on my meds.
TL;DR: Finally have free time for the first time in 5 years, but the boredom is driving me crazy. Especially since I can't see my friends. What do I do?
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