How do enter the workforce while dealing with an abusive relationship and life backfiring on you for years.

Okay, so I need help or some general advice. I'll try to get to the point, but there is some venting in this. After high school, I went to community college. After a year of community college I got an office job and got married. I worked there for about 2 or 3 years. I wanted to then transfer to university since I was unable to finish my work to get my associates degree (I'm bad at math, and my guidance counselor told me it would be easier for me to just focus on getting my bachelor's degree). I went to university, was extended due to switching my major, but I was getting stellar grades. I didn't work during this time since I didn't have a car, it was a rural area, and I was doing decent living carefully off of student loans (close to poverty but I made due).

During this time, I was diagnosed with a serious mental health disorders which makes daily life difficult, but I never stopped putting effort into my school would. Around the same time, my husband became extremely controlling. I realized my husband had taken total control of the bank (I couldn't even touch it and no longer could have a bank card), and lied to me about how we were gonna pay for school which screwed me when I took a semester I couldn't pay for.

I then waited a year to see if he would get the money promised (through his family) he would pay for school. He kept us afloat by working for the apartment company we worked for so there was basically no travel. I feel into depression and left hoping stupidly long that things would work out. He got so controlling I was rarely allowed to leave the apartment. A year turned into one... Then two... And... Yeah, I haven't been working for years nor did I finish school and I'm in debt up to my ears.

Fast forward a bit, he got laid off and we had to move back with family. Now, I'm in the Chicago area, a lot more opportunity even though I do need to walk or bus, but I'm in my late 20s with years of college and no degree, and only one job in my life. No car, I was lied to about it too and I'm pretty sure my husband sold it without telling me. It doesn't help that I don't have any friends out here and my mom is a drunk who thinks my husband is a saint.

During down time, I was working on self-publishing, but depression never let me got far with it. I've also taught myself photoediting. Can't do much with these skills for the time being. If anything, I was waiting for the day I finally had enough and I'd end my life. I'm not trying to make a pity-party or give excuses, but life became that hard for me.

Anyway, so here I am, desperately trying to save up enough money to leave my husband, but I need a job. Even flipping burgers will work, but I have so much anxiety about my resume and the lack I can put on it. All these years I've just been focused on school and trying to survive. I also worried about explaining this gap to interviewers. I can't tell an employer, "I haven't worked in years since I was stupid for trusting my husband (who I'm still trying to escape) who wouldn't let me work or even leave my apartment and I was too fixated on doing well in school." I haven't even volunteered due to the lack of being allowed to leave paired with social anexity. The thing that is good about me is that once I have a clear path, I'm great at pushing through it, problem is, I need a path. I'm done sitting in limbo being forced to trust the people who lie and try to control me.

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