Husband and I work at same place and in same (tight knit) industry. I'm realizing the industry isn't for me. How to leave without it reflecting badly on him?

I've been in this industry now for five years. I was trained by the same person who trained my significant other and my boss. We just hired another person who was also trained by my former advisor. I am still close with my advisor.

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Truth is, I have been slacking on my work for a while. I've been able to hide it well, I am great at pulling things together at the last minute, but my supervisor has started to suspect I'm not engaged. I don't like to be a quitter, and I want to be responsible, so I've probably strung this out a lot longer than I should have. I've been I've been ashamed of it, angry at myself, depressed, and more recently started having heart palpitation over really minor work-related stuff. Whenever I see my mother, she can tell immediately that this is weighing me down.

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I kept doing what I was "supposed to do", which has trained me very narrowly to do what I do, which only made it harder to consider leaving. I initially thought that maybe my sentiments were caused by depression, but when I start working on what I want to do for my new career, I can do it for hours. I guess it took me until now to admit that I don't care about my job and I simply can't force myself to do a job I don't care about.

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I won't leave until I have everything in order in terms of income. I fully intend to fulfill the rest of my contract, which is year-to-year (plenty of time left). I know they need to downsize, so it wouldn't hurt the company. My husband is supportive, but is very worried that this will reflect badly on him or come back to bite him. When they hired him, they hired me, too, so that we could work in the same state. I have the qualifications, so it wasn't a problem, but they still had to make special arrangements and come up with funding. I will still see these people because of my husband's profession, and I will still need to accompany my husband to relevant events without it being awkward. My supervisor is hoping I take the lead on one aspect of a three-year project, so would have to find a replacement, and I don't want that to piss him off and have him get angry with my husband, too. He has already told my husband that he's concerned about whether I am passionate about this project, and I've assured him all is well. Now, I feel like I'll have to backtrack on that.

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How can I do this delicately? What are the right words to say so that I don't burn bridges? I need to leave on a positive note. Can anyone help?

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