It’s been about 5 months since I left a workplace that was extremely abusive to me before I got a new manager and it became a lot better. I built so many of the systems in place today. Became considered one of the “best” employees.” Helped a lot of others out. And I made a lot of money and got a lot of awards. But I never could quite move past what had happened to me: the bullying, the lying, the management coverups, and the corruption.
The worst part of it was I actually really liked my job. I was really good at it. And I strongly believed in what the company was doing and believed it would succeed. On a daily basis, though, I struggled with self doubt and low self esteem. A huge cohort of my coworkers had made fun of me and excluded me. I felt like I couldn’t trust anyone. I was silenced at every turn and became an awful version of myself that was twitchy, anxious, and paranoid. So although I was being offered a promotional track and more money than I ever imagined making to stay, I couldn’t do it. I took another job.
I think it was the right decision to leave when I do, and my mental health is in a better space now. But God, how horrible it is to see how the company is thriving, taking off like a rocketship, benefitting massively from COVID-19. The stock price has shot up consistently - which is money I would’ve made had I stayed. Believe it or not, I was projected to make $200,000 in 5 months if I had stayed through the end of the year.
What’s worse is the fact that my boyfriend still works at the company so I’m still hearing about it or proximal to it all the time. I think it may end up being what ends our relationship.
If anyone has an experience to share of giving up a lot due to unfair or abusive circumstances, I would love to hear it. I feel very alone in this.
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