Move up or stay put? Feeling insecure about a new opportunity after being in my current position so long.

Hi,

I am an IT support technician. Recently, an internal opportunity presented itself and the job is systems administrator. I honestly wasn't considering it until a colleague (previous sysadmin) hounded me about it and said I'd be a great fit, He recruited 2 other sysadmins to talk to me about the position and answer some questions, and now all three are asking if I've applied for it yet. I feel like there's a lot of "buzz" going on about my potential answer.

Honestly, I don't know what I'm asking and maybe this is more of a self-confidence and mental health hurdle than something for a job discussion board - but maybe some of you can identify with it and can offer some advice as far as what direction to go.

Background/reservations: I've been there several years now and I feel like I've learned a lot, but not nearly as much as I (should) have by now. I've had a tough time with anxiety/depression/low self esteem, and mixed with what used to be a very toxic work environment, most days I was showing up and just surviving. To shorten it, I became a new parent last year and that was the catalyst I needed to make a positive change in my life. I got therapy and it's helped immensely. But now I look back on these years of my life wasted in a stagnant desktop support role where I stopped learning the first year, and I get disappointed and nervous. Of course, nobody knows what I was dealing with behind the scenes, they just see me and what they think I can do. I feel that these people don't truly realize how little I know, they're all just parroting it from what an ex-colleague told them about me as none of them have worked directly with me. But now they've encouraged me so much that I feel like I must apply for the new job, and I've been told I will surely be offered it if I apply! Now I'm trying to figure out what to do...

My current position: it's very comfortable, yet mind-numbing most days. I earn just under $40,000 per year. It's honestly about 2 hours of actual work and 6 hours of either Redditing/Facebook/online browsing (which isn't a bad thing, but I wish I had more structure and purpose some days) or being on a helpdesk rotation that I want nothing to do with. I feel like my brain turned to mush a long time ago, yet I have no stress, so it's been great in that respect especially on top of having a new baby and working on myself. I'm home every day at 5pm and can clear my head to go hang out with my son.

The potential position: $50,000/year. On-call rotation on weekend per month. From the sysadmins I've talked to: the job is very family friendly and there's lots of flexibility. 2 said it's low-stress, one guy said it's moderate stress. One said he's home with his kid every day at 5pm. I brought up my concerns about not feeling like I know very much or that I can measure up, they said it's no big deal and they just want someone with a good personality that is teachable.

Has anyone sort of felt like this before? What would you advise? I think a lot of people would say go for the new position, but I feel like for the first time in a long time, life is going very well, and I don't want to rock the boat and flip back into the hole I was in - I still don't feel 100% in the mental health department, but I'm getting there. Then again... these opportunities don't come along every day. I just see the absolute talent of the current people who work there... then I look at my skillset... and I just feel intimidated. Salary isn't important to me, really. #1 most important: low stress, flexibility, 8 to 5. Moderately important: Purpose. A feeling of belonging. Building up my confidence one new skill at a time. Having a career I can feel good about and will open up doors in the future. Not that important, but nice: Salary. I'll cut it off here, and if you read this whole thing, I truly appreciate it, and any advice you can send my way.

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