Stuck living with family, new full time job that is okay and sucks up all my time. Want to move somewhere far away because am depressed but am stuck.

I just turned 19. My girlfriend broke up with me two months ago so I got a new job to get my money up, started eating healthy and hitting the gym, started coaching my old baseball team, and have been pursuing a dream of mine which is to help people with issues in their life (motivational influencer), but I can't seem to find a solution to my issue. The past month I have worked harder on myself and with myself than I ever have in my life. I am happy that I am progressing with my life when I am at work, but I still feel the void of living at home and having friends that I don't like. I want to move to a city. I have considered Florida, but I do not know how to do that with car problems, little money, and no connections.

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Only until the past few years I have realized that my family is dysfunctional but also not. They are just normal people but the way they operate their lives and interact with others is drastically unmotivating. They are the type of people I hate in social scenarios. Gossip. Selfish. They don't realize it and let anger and their ego get the best of them without them even knowing that they arn't in control of themselves. Crazy how people can raise kids like this!?

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My friends were always amazing through high school and right out of it. However they all of lost touch with their inner kid and fell into a path of drugs. Not addicts, they just can't have fun if their isn't a drug mentioned in the event. Like alcohol. I am super motivated to make a name for myself and they are scared to go out and have their photo taken. EVERYONE in my town is like this. So many people I have met and they all want to do nothing in their life it feels. I try to get them to hop on my train which will progress their life (eg. investing) and they just have no desire.

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I have been working as a plumbing apprentice for almost a month. The first two weeks were fun because I was learning some new things, but now its just the same stuff and I am now irritated at my bosses for telling me what to do. I hate people telling me what to do. Hence why I want to be an influencer I guess, I do shit my own way. I want to explore the world. Venture with some new friends that share similar interests. Live in a van for a year with them or something. Something abstract! I hate working this 7-3. I know I need money to do anything, but even if I wanted to get an apartment in a different state It would easily take me close to a year of saving from this point to even begin a plan of moving. I can't live here for another year, I have already come close to ending things a few times (it was rough a few months ago). I don't know where else to post this, but I just need a source of income that will get me somewhere in a few months. My parents said they would help pay for me to live somewhere else if its something educational, but I hate college. I already tried it... twice. I want to live my own life working for myself rather than for somebody else. I can't do anything fun where I live because everything is boring for hours around me. Everything is residential and business. I need to get out of here before I drive myself crazy.

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